No? Can't? Quit?

Those have never been words I could swallow easily.  I HAVE WORKED THROUGH THIS my entire life.  THE OVER-ACHIEVER SYNDROME.  I say that with love and compassion and deepest truth.  I have always thrived in success and set myself up in scenarios that created that outcome.  In all honesty, even if that means being on the coattails of another victory... cheering them on to the end.  Perhaps that’s why being a lifelong cheerleader, mother, wife, Life Coach and everyone's go to girl has been the pattern and role I exist in so comfortably.  As I turned the corner of 40 years old, I noticed this desire to serve myself.  Hmmm... was I now ready to be my own cheerleader?  Coach myself to victory?  Could I do it?  I to had dreams just like everyone else but had gotten very use to putting them on the shelf because of the roles I played in life and those roles exhausted my energy.  By the time I was finished taking care of everyone else’s needs there was nothing left to put into my own needs.  That was fine for most of my life for it was so rewarding taking care of others and my ego was stroked generously.  When the days came, in which that didn’t feed me anymore, I couldn’t help but notice how empty I felt.  Surrounded by so much stuff but hollow within.  My soul was hungry.  My dreams were in a drought and my life's existence depended on how I was going to weather the desert… or the storm.  While I knew the desert would keep my existence barren but alive I couldn’t help but walk bravely into the storm without an umbrella or coat.  I remember actually someone once saying to me “you must want this so bad that you are ready to walk barren in the darkest of dark... coldest of cold... and through the most barren of all deserts with nothing at all”.  And I did.  It led me right into a storm… a storm in which all of my dreams that I put out on the shelf rained and poured on.  It felt overwhelming to say the least and not every one of those visions were delivered the way I imagined but nonetheless, the universe is a very powerful thing and once you start manifesting with direct intention... it will provide.  So, with that all being said, what’s on your shelf?  What have you put away in order to make someone else’s dreams come true?  Or even in order to allow your ego to rule your soul space.  Is it time to start dreaming again?  It’s a humble road.  And sometimes ya have to go through something to get to it.  Are you willing?  Or at the first sign of..."No" "Can't" "Quit" do you surrender and make more room on the shelf?  Living comfortably in the storm has taught me that it’s ok to overachieve... as long as you are achieving your life… not someone else's...that’s what umbrellas are for,)

And…Exhale-