Its a funny thing...

As a young girl I was taught to be strong. "To never let them see you sweat..." I spent most of my life pretending things didn't bother me and dancing around confrontation. I always smiled and when someone asked how I was...I was always "great" That always seemed to back fire because bottling things up eventually would just cause an inappropriate projection somewhere else in life. It took many years and a lot of practice to find my voice and wear my feelings. Feelings are a lot like clothing. You can change them as much as you want depending on how you feel...you can accessorize to accentuate or you can minimize to draw less attention...it may even feel like your wearing an itchy sweater some days and on others the softest, warmest, cozy sweats ... Colors also, speak volumes and can have a luminous effect on how we express ourselves. Sometimes you may want to walk around naked...while other times you may feel like wearing a shield of armor...feelings are not wrong or right they just are. Experience has provided me the wisdom to know, that the most powerful thing about feelings. Showing your emotions does not make you weak, it is NOT a sign of weakness, but rather, a sign of strength. It takes a lot of courage to stand in your truth, be who you are, and express how you feel. Those that love you, love all of you...and those that truly don't will get weeded out the more you stay true to you. You have the right to feel however you like and if you have a change of heart and feel different later that's completely ok. Its a funny thing tho...the more comfortable I became with my feelings the more distinguished the pathways of healthy boundaries became. These dignified pathways were created with a moral compass that truly suited my over all being. This was an outfit I could wear comfortably and looked amazing in! In doing so though, it has challenged some...and to my hearts dismay, my love, compassion, and temperament has been questioned. Its ironic how stepping into ones power can leave others in a place of doubt...and perhaps anguish. Why is it that? Why is it that being a strong person can come across cold and arrogant...why is the vast more content with the old patterns of holding it in and hiding how you truly feel in order to make someone else feel better or perhaps more comfortable with who we are? Is its because if your standing in your power then then they have to look at themselves? and what might they see? Perhaps they are not ready? and would rather hide behind the walls of fear, insecurity, and denial? I get it...I understand. It can be scary expressing your truth. Allowing yourself to be seen for all the good...the bad...the ugly. I encourage it anyway. Being true to your feelings doesn't mean fears or insecurities disappear. Quite the contrary... however, when those feelings show up if your honest with yourself and honor what right for you it will become more comfortable. It is in that awareness you can learn, grow and become more resilient. Consciousness keeps me awake especially when I need to step into reality of what is and isn't. It gives me strength to do what is needed and I am empowered by my truth because I have honored myself. It may not always be the easiest path but its real and the truth is far more predictable than the deceit of denial. Everyday is a practice...an opportunity to practice being who we are to our souls content not someone else's. Everyday is a gift and an opportunity to express our divine true self... There are days I walk around with my pockets pulled out and have crazy hair... and then there are days I am polished and ready to conquer the world. No matter what the most authentic place for me is being ME.. And I assure you the most beloved place for you is being YOU. Emotions are a strength and having boundaries are healthy. Being a strong person that has a moral compass is not coming from a cunning or cold place... its provided from the depth of a sweet soft soul and what makes someone beautiful and powerful from the inside out....its a funny thing tho, that old expression "never let them see you sweat" doesn't really apply as you age anyway... I sweat all the time,) and in the most indecent places...go figure! and...Exhale